Posts Tagged ‘changes’

Off to college

Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009

There’s a million different ways to break the news to my friend the Internet that life has taken a shift and that I’m changing directions and going to college. I’m going to give it the short treatment today but take comfort that there is a long version of this.

What: Two years of MiraCosta community college and then transferring to public university, most likely of the CSU variety. Choosing the community college route so as to save at least one arm and one leg on tuition costs. I have a direction I’m heading on a major, but not announcing it just yet in case I change my mind on this journey of growth and discovery.

When: Enrolling in January 2010 for spring semester.

With whom: Friends and comrades Chuck, Boo and Stephy Paone. I am enrolling with them. We’re enrolling in unity.

How (will it work?): Like magic :) Actually, more likely with huge amounts of prayer, lots of hard work, lots of coffee, and lots of lentils (they say the college student of our day lives on ramen but not me, no siree. Lentils, not ramen, will be my forever friend on this journey.)

More specifically, since we dig Activated Ministries and it digs us back, we’re going to keep working there part-time to further the cause of Christ and put lentils on the table while we studiously study. As far as lodging goes, we will lodge ourselves in an apartment, living together in harmony just like the early church.

Why college?: To gain the skills, knowledge, exposure and experience needed to help me serve God and fellow man with greater effectiveness.

That’s the very, very short version. The long version involves epiphanies, hours of dialog, soul-searching, excitement, moments of deep existential angst, fear, faith, God’s promises, waiting, writing, proposing, researching, Craigslist-prowling, calculating, re-figuring, researching, more researching, and hearty amounts of Uncle Dan’s Algebra review.

Blogging will continue – although at this point it’s more correct to say that blogging will start again. I plan to keep blogging until I find my blogging stride. I haven’t found my blogging stride yet and it may take years, but by golly I’ll keep blogging until I do.

A Reflective and Quasi-Emotive Post

Monday, April 20th, 2009

Bear with me as I try something here. I’m going to try and write something that will likely disenchant my entire readership because it belongs in the type of blog that uses a lot of decorative italic fonts and peaceful nature images. This type of blog would be authored by the type of person who describes themselves as “a mother, a wife, a human, a citizen of the world who has loved, languished, laughed, and lived every moment with joy and expectancy in what each new day will bring” in their About page.

Yup, I’m going to write a reflective and quasi-emotive post. I just feel like it. All (if indeed I have any) male readers should read no further……no really, go away. I don’t want you to see me like this.

Are they gone? Good. Okay. Ready? Lord bless this.

My Reflective and Quasi-Emotive Post

Let it be entered into the record books that today, April 19th of 2009, was perfect in every way that concerned the weather. There was just the perfect amount of briskness in the springtime morning air to make my hot coffee still enjoyable. Summer mornings around here aren’t like that and hot coffee is something to be tolerated instead of savored. I savored my coffee while I sat on a couch with a clear view of a beautiful ocean and listened to Mr. Setfree read to me about the importance of going Beyond Duty on my mp3 player. After word I got through a couple chapters of a real book – the kind that you hold in your hands and turn real pages instead of hitting “page down”. It was a treat. Throughout the whole morning I was very sensitive to my awareness of how much there is in my life to be savored.

Then the weather turned warm, very warm. Warm, no, hot enough to tan all 77 of my very white zealous inches. I soaked up a righteous podcast on the subject of faith in secular society while the sun’s rays worked very hard to make me a more attractive woman.

Invigorated, I set out to do my laundry (for Sunday is my laundry day) and I even enjoyed that.

Then off to the winery with good friends. Never mind no gas in the car and one wrong turn, these things don’t matter when you’re with good friends. We wined, we…..wait, we didn’t dine. We mostly just wined in a gorgeous winery setting with vines and fountains and all that peaceful artsy type of stuff. A guy sitting at a table 20 feet from ours started playing classical guitar. He was really good. The sun made everything look quite golden and we laughed a lot.

Here’s what made this day so great. The weather helped, certainly. Good friends were a pretty vital element. I also watched the hotel scene from Out of Sight and that’s a surefire way to improve anyone’s day. But the real reason it was a great day is because I consciously decided I was going to stop worrying about the gosh-darn future and simply just live – enjoy my coffee, enjoy my Word time, enjoy my book, enjoy my friends, enjoy my hotel scene :) – just enjoy my day off. When you turn off that part in your mind that faithfully brings up all that there is for you to worry about, even just for a day, suddenly the lights come on and you recognize everything around you that’s available to enjoy in that wonderful thing called the present.

For reasons that I’m not ready to blog about just yet, my future is looking……yeah, uncertain is a good word. It’s thrilling and exhilarating and every adjective in that vein but it’s also scary. Too many big decisions. It’s only April and I feel like I’ve lived a lifetime during this year already. I find myself (there I am) spending most of my day living in the future instead of the present. Most of it is worry. Then I worry about how much I worry and so I try to do things to alleviate my worry and then worry that I didn’t do those things well enough.

I like C.S. Lewis’ take on the whole subject from The Screwtape Letters. I learn so much from Screwtape:

The humans live in time but our Enemy (God) destines them to eternity. He therefore, I believe, wants them to attend chiefly to two things, to eternity itself, and to that point of time which they call the Present…..Our (demons) business is to get them away from the eternal, and from the Present. It is far better to make them live in the Future. Biological necessity makes all their passions point in that direction already, so that thought about the Future inflames hope and fear. Also, it is unknown to them, so that in making them think about it we make them think of unrealities.

To be sure, the Enemy wants men to think of the Future too—just so much as is necessary for now planning the acts of justice or charity which will probably be their duty tomorrow. He does not want men to give the Future their hearts, to place their treasure in it. We do. His ideal is a man
who, having worked all day for the good of posterity (if that is his vocation), washes his mind of the whole subject, commits the issue to Heaven, and returns at once to the patience or gratitude demanded by the moment that is passing over him.

Or, even simpler. “Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself” Mat. 6:34. It’s a lesson I was happy to learn today. I’ll be back at it come Monday morning because the future is still there and it’s gotta be dealt with. And as much as I worry about it, it really is as bright as God’s promises. But refusing to worry about the future for one day and just live entirely in the present made for a very nearly perfect day off. Try it sometime.

Two pictures from this nearly perfect day for the last of my friends who aren’t on Facebook.

Glad game #5: Got over salt and gum

Monday, February 23rd, 2009

It’s a small thing, but I’m thankful for it. Through an act of will and the grace of God I determined last year that I would not salt every single bite of food multiple times. It was getting so bad that I was starting to put salt on my toast. I salted my pancakes once and that’s when I decided that enough was enough. I now give my friend the salt shaker one or two (fine, four or five) quick shakes at the beginning of mealtime (the happy time) and then walk away. It hasn’t come right out and thanked me, but I feel like my blood pressure is grateful for this change.

Same goes for gum. I was going through a pack a day and it was draining my funds at a slow but unpleasant rate. I stopped. I don’t really chew gum now. It’s a blessing.

By this time next year I hope to be free of sugar in my coffee, and my eventual ten year plan is to be free of caffeine altogether. I read somewhere that’s it’s bad for you, but it will probably take at least ten years for this head knowledge to morph into an actual conviction.

It’s that time again

Tuesday, December 2nd, 2008

Every couple of months I make a post that is a accumulation of everything that’s not valid enough to be its own post. This is one of those posts. Hopefully these few tasteful tidbits it will endear me to you further, that’s kind of the main point of this blog.

Firstly, I’m moving continents. I’ve been saying that to myself a lot lately. The realization is a weird mixture of scary and wow, mostly wow. It feels weird to simultaneously be a Family member, 21 years old and moving continents for the first time since I can remember. Usually those three things don’t go together. Oh well.

I’ve decided that until proven otherwise, I’m going to maintain that I’m the tallest woman in The Family. I’d love to be proven otherwise, so if you stand taller than 6 feet five inches and are of the female persuasion, feel free to go ahead and let me know. And, maybe, we could be friends? Heck, if you’re a guy and over 6 feet 5 inches, let me know. We should definitely be friends. (There, aren’t you proud of me, Maria? I feel this is a big step in opening my heart up like a flower.)

My first time buying alcohol in the States and they don’t even card me. It was a letdown.

I realized recently that for years I’ve been extremely insecure about my usage of “its” vs. “it’s”. It was kind of a subconscious thing that I never really nailed down and decided to Google the answer to until I just came across it one day while browsing. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders with this knowledge. Here it is in case you were wondering:

It’s vs. Its

This is another common mistake. It’s also easily avoided by thinking through what you’re trying to say.

“It’s” is a contraction of “it is” or “it has.” “Its” is a possessive pronoun, as in “this blog has lost its mojo.” Here’s an easy rule of thumb—repeat your sentence out loud using “it is” instead. If that sounds goofy, “its” is likely the correct choice.

Meh. I thought I had accumulated more stuff. Posting these kinds of posts is a dilemma for me because I know it probably won’t get any comments and comments validate me as a blogger. I’m actually very insecure about this. Maybe you could just leave a comment on any topic of your choosing, (your thoughts on the government bailout or the current state of your fingernails, for example) thereby educating us all and validating me, your friend and comrade.

Nepal, AM, and other stuff that’s up with me

Thursday, October 23rd, 2008

I was getting kinda tired of checking this blog to see if anyone had hacked into it and left something interesting to read. Since no one else is stepping up to the plate, I said “enough’s enough – by golly I’ll update, by golly I will” (I’m kidding, I didn’t actually literally say that). So here’s a nice long newsy post with all kinds of newsy news which probably won’t be as interesting as you deserve. I wish I could be like Uncle Mike or Hobbyns back in the glory days and make even commonplace blogging subjects curiously interesting simply by virtue of a stellar command of the English language. While I’m wishing, I’d also like a pony.

Anywhoo, seeing as it’s now October which was a month past my projected leaving date to Nepal and seeing as the leaving part has not really happened yet – first update of the day is that I’ve recently been getting intimately accquainted with the spiritual principle of “God’s timing” and it appears that God was not in the timing of leaving in September. He’s indicated that the end of January is more along the lines of His will and so end of January it is. In the meantime, I get to psyche myself up for suffering frostbite for the cause of Christ since (I hear) February is the coldest month in Kathmandu. Hooray! I’m going to be a real live field person for the first time since I was two and I’m pretty excited – this blog will hopefully see more updates as I chronicle my experiences of transitioning from full time office work to full time outreach on the other side of the world.

Switching subjects here – I’d just like to point out how unspeakably awesome Activated Ministries is. I’ve worked here full time since I was 17 and part time long before that. I’m in the lucky position of being one of the first people to see the reports from all the dozens of projects that we sponsor around the world and the seminars that we pull off and sponsor as well right here and whenever I think about it – I give myself a big pat on the back (not really). Seriously, all of the amazing work that we’re a part of doesn’t get half as much publicity as it should and it deserves much more because everyone here works their butts off to make completely free tools available for all kinds of Family members and projects around the world.

To name a few, we’ve sponsored free materials to projects in Thailand, Cambodia, Taiwan, India, Mozambique, Japan, Sahara, Mexico, Nepal, Fiji, Indonesia, Guatemala, Ghana, Peru, and Chile. We also sponsor the translation of tools into Spanish and Portuguese and the printing of Activated mags into Hungarian, Croatian, Romanian and Russian. That’s not mentioning every major seminar that has taken place over the last couple of years in North America which have been hugely sponsored by Activated Ministries. We’ve sponsored tool credit to every teen who attended the three previous Wordstocks to help them raise their attendance fees. There’s also the free tool credit we’ve sponsored for every single PMA mentor in The Family. In conclusion, Activated Ministries is a non-profit rockstar.

Our website (the one that I’ve been linking to more times than is considered in good taste, I’m sure) has less than half of the reports that we’ve received from every continent (save Antarctica, but give us time). I’m on a push to get the rest of our projects posted now that the Educators Seminar (also sponsored by Activated Ministries) is over and life can get back to, um….normal. So visit the site every once in awhile and be wowed, and when you see anyone from Activated Ministries, give them a hug and tell them they’re completely awesome, because they are. And yo, if you have a great work or project that you need free tools for, write me at sponsorship@actmin.org and I promise you’ll get reviewed and you may just find yourself with a shipment of brand spanking new, completely free materials with which to go evangelize your part of the world.

Furtherlmorely switching subjects, today Chuck and I got to be part of a presentation/question & answer session at San Diego State University on The Family International. To break the ice with all the students, we read parts of this article (we’re #3) to everyone. Heh, heh. We didn’t read all of it, but I think it broke the ice pretty well. It was fun, I spoke on prophecy and did better in my first public speaking attempt than I thought I would, praise God and the spirit helpers. I also came to the realization that I would like to lecture for a living at some future point in my life. Just dress nice and talk about what you know, how simple is that?

Hey wow, this post turned out not so boring after all, for me at least. I know I had other stuff to blog about but I can’t think of it now and even if I could, since I got on the subject of Activated Ministries I don’t want to steal its thunder since it really deserved its very own post, what with it being so awesome and all. I’ll wrap up with two quotes that I found two years ago and have had sitting in drafts ever since. If in two years I haven’t found the appropriate post to stick them in I don’t think I ever will. So here they are in all their à la carte glory.

To hear many religious people talk, one would think God created the torso, head, legs and arms, but the devil slapped on the genitals. ~Don Schrader

There are three kinds of death in this world. There’s heart death, there’s brain death, and there’s being off the network. ~Guy Almes

P.S. When you go to the AM website – take a nice close look at the logo. It’s flash. Jer did it. I like it.

P.P.S. I linked to AM so many times because apparently it’s good for our rankings. Hopefully one of the brainy ones will read this and educate me if linking to it a bunch of times in the same post is a good thing or not because I don’t really remember.

P.P.P.S. If anyone feels like reminding Mr. Setfree of his agreement to guest star on my blog, I don’t mean to be pushy but if this interview goes unanswered again I don’t know if I’ll recover from the hearbreak.

Hey, wow.

Thursday, August 7th, 2008

I realized last night that for the first time in 18 years, I’ve moved Homes.

I guess this is kind of a big moment for me.

Big news

Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008

Well, it’s news for anyone not in the greater California/Baja area.

After returning from Nepal, I decided that it’s just too cool of a country to not live in. So I decided to live there. Probably making the move in September.

I’m pretty excited.